Friday, June 21, 2024

Mass Statement Day 2023 (A Day in My Life)


So yesterday was the twelfth of Could, additionally identified within the UK as Mass Statement Day! Yearly, the Mass Statement Archive asks folks to maintain a diary for the day with a view to report the on a regular basis lives of the UK inhabitants. I’ve been retaining diaries for many of my life and I feel that the concept of pulling collectively all of those accounts with a view to get an image of an atypical day within the life, no matter that may seem like, for a giant group of individuals is absolutely, actually cool so I at all times attempt to take part. Right here is my contribution for this 12 months.

Some necessary issues to know earlier than studying: I’m neurodivergent, autistic and ADHD, and battle with a number of psychological well being points (Despair, Generalised Nervousness Dysfunction, Obsessive Compulsive Dysfunction, and Borderline Persona Dysfunction) and bodily well being issues (Hypermobile Ehlers-Danlos Syndrome and Postural Orthostatic Tachycardia Syndrome). Having spent eighteen months within the worst depressive episode of my life, I’m lately again on treatment and making an attempt to get my ft beneath me once more, working arduous at each remedy and hydrotherapy. I’ve additionally lately launched my newest single as a singersongwriter, ‘Home on Hearth,’ and am working in the direction of a number of different tasks.

I slept by two alarms, fully exhausted. I’d had a very late evening in London seeing Ingrid Andress in live performance (supported by Nick Wilson), which was completely wonderful however between the vitality expended and the way late I acquired residence, I used to be past drained.

After I lastly managed to power myself awake round eleven, I lay in mattress for a short while: I did a fast verify in with social media (I’m making an attempt actually arduous to discover a wholesome steadiness round time on my telephone), did some Duolingo follow, and browse a bit of little bit of my e book (each of these items are habits that I’m making an attempt to follow day by day). Then I acquired up and acquired prepared for the remainder of the day.

At one, I had a Zoom date with considered one of my finest pals. We had a superb catch up about what’s being occurring for every of us, with many a tangent on sort of weird matters like alternate universes or the completely different sounds that bugs make. After which we continued watching the TV collection we’ve been watching collectively for the previous couple of months, a collection we each loved once we had been youthful; we like it however we additionally love making enjoyable of it so we at all times have a blast. We managed to look at two episodes and had a good time earlier than I needed to go. I didn’t have lengthy earlier than my remedy appointment so I acquired my bag prepared after which fiddled round on my guitar till I needed to depart (I haven’t been capable of play for lengthy stretches of time lately since I damage a few my fingers so I’m making an attempt to construct it up once more).

I used to be so drained and actually sleepy (one of many ongoing signs of my well being struggles and fairly doubtless a facet impact of my treatment), plus my continual ache was fairly unhealthy (my shoulder and knee have been significantly painful for a number of days now), however I attempted my finest to push by and interact the very best I may with remedy. In some methods, it was a reasonably chilled session (as they go): my therapist had requested me to ship her the poetry I’ve been engaged on over the past month or so, which I did. However it was additionally arduous and I felt actually susceptible as a result of a lot of the poems are so sincere and so revealing. There have been some that I stated, earlier than we even began, that I couldn’t discuss; simply writing about these matters and sharing them (my nervousness about them was so excessive that I used to be actually tempted to go away them out) was a giant step ahead. Clearly I would like my therapist to learn about these struggles however speaking about them is past tough (simply the considered it makes me wish to scream or run or each); that is the very best I can do for now. So we went by the poems, speaking about what impressed them and my emotions about these folks or experiences or struggles, which inevitably was larger discussions. That meant that we didn’t get by all of them however we did cowl some necessary stuff. I’ve been again at remedy for some time now – a number of months – however my new therapist remains to be attending to know me and I’m nonetheless getting snug along with her; there are various issues that I can discuss however there are nonetheless issues that I can’t, issues that I’ve by no means been capable of. It’s a course of, as I usually should remind myself.

Again residence, I talked with my Mum about a number of the stuff that had come up within the session however I’m at all times fully exhausted after remedy – I’ve been identified to go to sleep on the couch afterwards, therefore the late afternoon appointments – so I checked in with the cats, placed on The Good Place (my present rewatch), and lay on the couch for a bit. I referred to as considered one of my mother and father for a catch up, had some dinner, after which spent the remainder of the night engaged on some various things for this weblog.


What ought to’ve been a reasonably nice night was difficult a bit by how unhealthy my hair pulling has gotten. That stressed, anxious vitality that drives me to maintain doing it’s so arduous to withstand, particularly after I’m drained, and the longer I do it, the extra it hurts: my scalp, my neck, my shoulder, my elbow, my hand. However I can’t cease. There have been intervals of time the place completely different coping mechanisms have no less than diminished the quantity of hair pulling however I don’t have one which’s working proper now. It’s irritating and it’s exhausting and painful however I simply can’t cease, no matter how a lot I wish to. I did look into Hypnotherapy briefly a very long time in the past however didn’t get very far with that endeavour, possibly as a result of it at all times felt like there have been larger issues occurring, however possibly I’ll strive once more as a result of it’s been ten years and it will be very nice not to do that anymore.

Given how drained I used to be, I attempted to go to mattress earlier – I’ve been going to mattress far too late – and whereas I did go to mattress a bit earlier, I nonetheless ended up staying up too late, catching up with my diary. I had a number of cats curled up with me, which was very candy, so it may’ve been worse and, in spite of everything of my issues with sleep, I did no less than fall asleep shortly and simply; I’m at all times grateful for that now, having struggled a lot over the past couple of years.


So it wasn’t essentially the most fascinating day of my life but it surely’s fairly correct to my life proper now and I assume that’s the purpose of the train. It’s a traditional day in my life and that is what regular appears like proper now, for essentially the most half.

When you preserve a diary or wish to be aware down some ideas about what your twelfth of Could appeared like, the web site is right here, the place you possibly can be taught extra about this venture (and their different work) and submit your entry if you need to.


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